I haven't posted about our newest arrival yet, cause frankly I want it to be really endearing and meaningful and insightful when I do and I just don't have it in me at this point. I have been a mama of 2 for 10 days now, and feel pretty normal. Nothing like the horrible sleepless nights everyone has described and definitely different than just Eli, but all in all kindof business as usual. I think I am just so glad to not be pregnant anymore and have my body back in the touch your toes kind of way that nothing else is phasing me. Now.. I am stil freshly post-partum and may eat my words in a week or two or maybe even tomorrow, but for now things are good. One thing I have noticed is that you know when you have a part time job you kindof dread going? Like why bother, cause you're not really invested, and you've got other things you would like to be doing, but you have a comittment to be there, so you are. That is sort of how I feel about having 1 child. That sounds bad, cause I don't have anything more important than Eli and I don't dread him at all, but in the back of my head I think.."I could be accomplishing something else theoretically.." Now that Jonah is here, I feel a little more free to have a little less ambition and instead just enjoy where I am. That being said, I do have some sewing endevors that I'm iching to get going on and painted 2 new paintings last month before the birth. I would like to hang on to that momentum. Then there is always reinstating my stomach muscles... I suppose there will have to be some prioritizing, but that is the beauty of this time. No one expects me to have it figured out yet. So for now I'm just soaking up my sweet baby and wishing that he would stay small and pink forever.
